Deborah James persuaded me to get my chronic stomach pain checked – Hayley Matthews

Deborah James, second from left, with Rachel Adedeji, Steve Bland and Ray Quinn, as they receive the award for Best Podcast for the show You, Me and the Big C at the TRIC Awards in 2019 (Picture: Ian West/PA)Deborah James, second from left, with Rachel Adedeji, Steve Bland and Ray Quinn, as they receive the award for Best Podcast for the show You, Me and the Big C at the TRIC Awards in 2019 (Picture: Ian West/PA)
Deborah James, second from left, with Rachel Adedeji, Steve Bland and Ray Quinn, as they receive the award for Best Podcast for the show You, Me and the Big C at the TRIC Awards in 2019 (Picture: Ian West/PA)
It's a strange feeling when you're jarred by the death of someone you've never met.

You may feel sad, have that sinking feeling and with it, possibly, a little guilt that your grief is nowhere near as intense as the family’s.

This is how I feel with the passing of Dame Deborah James. I'd never met her but can relate to her, having had similar careers. I have a family like she does, I have also some bowel troubles and ongoing investigations that worry me hugely.

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But the thing that I found really difficult was watching her decline. I'd been following her for a while and always just thought she'd be OK. She was young, happy and radiant. There were no signs of a ‘stereotypical’ cancer patient.

She was lucky enough to keep most of her hair (she'd mentioned how thick it was), was incredibly glamorous, but most of all seemed full of energy.